Friday, March 17, 2006
ReassuranceDue to lack of sleep and my laziness,i've decided to give my make up lecture a miss.Even though i could lie on my cozy bed for a little while more,i still got to drag myself up not long after.Went back to my secondary school this morning to attend the rehearsal for my school 39th anniversary as well as to rehearse for the prize presentation.As i stepped into the hall,i saw some familiar faces,namely MR ong,my Principal,Mr Wong,my string orchestra intructor,many other teachers and friends.Some of them looked as young as before,while some seriously put on tonnes of weight.haha.I'm quite mean sia.Then,i went to report my attendance to one of the teacher-in -charge.She said to me,"You are sec 1,2 or 3.Under which category? Top in subject? or Scholarship award?" Oh my gosh! Do i look that young? Haha.
Got to meet a few of my friends which i made only When we were in the same jc(pae).One of them is siping.We talk alot about how our jc life is going on and i found out that S0606 is really seperated.However,some were simply lucky that they get to have their clicks in the same class.For Munkiat's case,i felt so sad for him.He tried so hard appealing into Ajc and yet,he is alone again.None of our class people will be in the same calss as him.Lets just hope that he will be able to adapt well into his new class and having friends around him that is able to influence him well.
For those who came this morning to this rehearsal is either those who topped in a particular subject or having outstanding award,which is like those who have 7,8,9 distinction.And that explain why most of them are in top 5 jc except me.At that point of time,i really regretted not going for the make up lecture.I really have no idea if i should complain, gramble or to blame myself.I know vividly that this is the plan god has for me.However,part of me is not willing to accept.
While i was having my devotion just now,i came across this passage which i could clearly see the path god wants me to walk.
I'll stay where you've put me;I will,dear Lord,
Though i wanted so badly to go;
I was eager to march with the "rank and file,"
Yes,i wanted to lead them,You know.
I planned to keep step to music loud,
To cheer when the banner unfurled,
To stand in the midst of the fight straight and proud,
But i'll stay where You've put me.
I'll stay where you've put me;I'll work,dear Lord,
Though the field may be small and narrow,
And the ground be neglected,and stones lie thick,
And there seems to be no life at all.
The field is your own,only give me the seed,
I'll sow it with never a fear;
I'll till the dry soil while i wait for the rain,
And rejoice when the green blades appear;
I'll work where you have put me.
I'll stay Where you've put me;I will,dear Lord;
I'll bear the day's burden and heat,
Always trusting you fully;when sunset has come
I'll lay stalks of grain at you feet.
And then,when my earth work is ended and done,
In the light of eternity's glow,
Life's record all closed,I surly will find
It's better to stay than to go;
I'll stay where You've put me. Author unknown
posted @ 10:11 PM
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